Family

I think family is important but sometimes, you have to know when to step away and look at the big picture. There has been a lot of "drama" type events going on in my extended family and I just have to step away. I hate when they try to get me in the middle of things, I have enough to deal with without the extra "drama". Granted my cousin's wife is in the hospital because she is having to be monitored, she is 34 weeks pregnant and they are concerned about her and the baby. I just want to stay out of the way, call me if you need something or if the baby comes. Don't call me to give insight on why so and so did such and such.

Ok, enough rambling about that. I am getting closer to launching the project I have been working on and lately and I have been pleasantly surprised on that front. I have put my heart into this so, I will continue to do so as I want to see it succeed and see my mission/goals achieved. It is something that I can be proud of and hope that my son will want to be a part of when he gets older. I have had all kinds of support from friends and strangers that it just warms my heart to know that people care. My family as you can tell has had their hands full with other things.

Anyway, if all goes well, I should have a new baby girl cousin in the next week or so. I do hope that my cousin's wife continues to remain ok and that the baby comes through to this life healthy. Ahhhh........the never ending lessons to be learned!! Hope everyone is having a great week. I am looking up, staying positive and know that WE are not in control, we are merely passengers in this adventure called life!!!

3 Months

So, today marks three months since we have been waiting. I know many people are saying, "Big Deal" well, it is a big deal because we could get a referral anytime between now and July. Hopefully, the time frame does not get longer. I am excited that we are now in the "referral could come at anytime"zone!! I hope it comes sooner than later.

In other news.....I woke up this morning and I knew I was going to get some news, good news. I just had that feeling, I was not sure what it would be or where it would come from but I just knew. So, I am sitting at work getting some things done for my project and I have been checking my email frequently. Well, I saw an email from another adoptive parent, he has been a wonderful email friend. I got to finally meet him last month and he has been there this whole time cheering me on and sharing his experience with his China adoption. He had helped me with my decision of which agency to use for our China adoption. I have known this man for years now. Anyway, I saw an email from him and I knew they were in the process again. I just knew this was an email I could not wait to open until later. I was right, I opened it and it was the good news I knew would come today. He got his referral and I was just ecstatic for him and his family. What a wonderful way to start the new year. The funny part was they had requested a girl but was also open to a boy, this whole time, they just naturally expected a referral for a girl but God stepped in and had another plan for them. Isn't it just awesome that God decided that this little boy needed a family and it was his family that the little boy needed. I just love stories like that!! I knew this was going to be a year of unexpected surprises!!! To my wonderful friend and his family congrats, your boy is just gorgeous and you are all truly blessed to be brought together!!

What a beautiful day for wonderful news, can't wait to see what tomorrow brings!!

Asian Baby Laughs

New year's eve, my nephew who is seven, was at my office for a few hours. I have tried talking to him about our adoption and he gets it a little but I am not sure exactly how much. I have some photos of random cute Asian babies up in my office, it just makes me happy. Well, this picture was hanging up, I love this picture because it is just cute. I love the wrinkled nose, the hair standing up, the squinted eyes. My nephew looks at the pictures and asks who the babies are and I say,"they are just some Asian babies." He stopped at this picture and says, Asian babies can't laugh that much. I looked at him, kind of surprised and said, "really, why not?" I am expecting some off the wall answer. He proceeds to tell me that he can't laugh that much so there is no way an Asian baby can laugh that much. I said, "Well, how do you know?" and he continues to tell me, "they are no different than me and aunt Heather, if I can't do it, they can't." I said, "ok, you may be right." I was relieved to hear this coming from him because I was wondering how much was getting through to him. My nephew is such a good kid and I am just happy to see that when we get our child, he will have a wonderful cousin to learn from.

The Decision was made

I decided to take my blog off private. I figure I can always switch back if I want. Right now there is a lot going on and I want my blog to be available in case others want to follow along.

I have had a great New Year so far, minus the starting the year off with getting rid of a cold. I figure, at least I was getting rid of it, right??

Anyway, the project I have been working on is really coming together and I am getting a lot of response, I am grateful for that as I was starting to doubt a few things. I know this is a test and I have to remember that. I am so excited about life right now, I feel like I have found my passion and it will quickly become a reality. I am working on getting a website together and I hope to be able to get it all out there within the next few weeks.

As far as the adoption front, there is nothing new to report yet. I know this will be the year of many great memories to be made.

So..........fasten your seat belts, this here is the wildest ride in the wilderness!!!

New year

I am so glad it is the New Year! I am hoping for many exciting things this year. We are expecting our referral and to travel to get our son this year, I am working on launching something this year and I plan to blog more. I haven't blogged lately because between being sick and feeling down, I haven't felt the urge. I try to keep my blogging positive so, when I feel down, I just rather not blog about it.

I am thinking about making my blog public again. I was never asked by my agency to make my blog private, I thought it may be a good thing to do but I am having second thoughts about it.

So, here is a great new year with many exciting things!! What are you doing this year?

Slowly making progress

So, I am slowly making progress on this new venture I am working on. The lawyers are working with me to make sure we get it set up correctly. I am going to work on the website for it on Sun. with a dear friend of mine, I am working on a fan page for Facebook. I am just hoping everything comes together as I hope and visualize it to be.

We continue to wait and wait. I did get an email from our agency that there were 4 referrals in Nov., one so far in Dec. and one baby made it home in Nov. Happy news, hopefully all of this is bringing us closer to seeing our child's face for the first time. I am staying optimistic and sending out positive vibes. All in good time, I know this.

I have decided not to decorate our tree this year, it has lights and right now, that is all I can bear to see. I just don't feel much Christmas spirit this year. I know that will change come Christmas day and I get to see my nieces and nephew open their gifts but I am just not "in the spirit". I also keep thinking of all the waiting families and children longing for those open hearts and arms to cuddle into, it makes me sad. I pray everynight that our child is safe, it is quite possible he is already born and in foster care. I pray that God watches over him, his foster parents and his birthparents. I just think about what a hard decision it is and how wonderful it is for them to make an adoption plan for our child. For these things, I am grateful.

Ok, on a brighter note, I will have a gift under the tree for Ethan, I got to order him a pair of the cute sock monkey slippers, they FINALLY came back in stock!! They should arrive just in time for Christmas!!!

2 Months

Yesterday was 2 months since we have been waiting for our referral. This past month seems to of flown by. The holidays help with distracting us but also makes me wish we had our baby. All in good time, I know.

Today marks 21 years since my grandpa left this earth. I miss him so much, I know he is with me through all the waiting and paperwork.

I am still working on a big project, things are coming along slowly but the pieces are falling into place. I will be happy when I can finally unveil everything, it is such an exciting thing for me and is something that I am very passionate about.