Slowly making progress

So, I am slowly making progress on this new venture I am working on. The lawyers are working with me to make sure we get it set up correctly. I am going to work on the website for it on Sun. with a dear friend of mine, I am working on a fan page for Facebook. I am just hoping everything comes together as I hope and visualize it to be.

We continue to wait and wait. I did get an email from our agency that there were 4 referrals in Nov., one so far in Dec. and one baby made it home in Nov. Happy news, hopefully all of this is bringing us closer to seeing our child's face for the first time. I am staying optimistic and sending out positive vibes. All in good time, I know this.

I have decided not to decorate our tree this year, it has lights and right now, that is all I can bear to see. I just don't feel much Christmas spirit this year. I know that will change come Christmas day and I get to see my nieces and nephew open their gifts but I am just not "in the spirit". I also keep thinking of all the waiting families and children longing for those open hearts and arms to cuddle into, it makes me sad. I pray everynight that our child is safe, it is quite possible he is already born and in foster care. I pray that God watches over him, his foster parents and his birthparents. I just think about what a hard decision it is and how wonderful it is for them to make an adoption plan for our child. For these things, I am grateful.

Ok, on a brighter note, I will have a gift under the tree for Ethan, I got to order him a pair of the cute sock monkey slippers, they FINALLY came back in stock!! They should arrive just in time for Christmas!!!

2 Months

Yesterday was 2 months since we have been waiting for our referral. This past month seems to of flown by. The holidays help with distracting us but also makes me wish we had our baby. All in good time, I know.

Today marks 21 years since my grandpa left this earth. I miss him so much, I know he is with me through all the waiting and paperwork.

I am still working on a big project, things are coming along slowly but the pieces are falling into place. I will be happy when I can finally unveil everything, it is such an exciting thing for me and is something that I am very passionate about.