Reflecting

Today was a hectic day, it did not help that I was exhausted either. I am sitting here reflecting. I am reflecting on the events of last night and the stories I have heard over the past few years. It seems like everyone has a story to tell about their adoption. I have heard all kinds of stories and it made me reflect on our story and our lives over the past few years.

We got married a little over six years ago. We decided that we would start trying to get pregnant about 6 months after we were married. We did like most couples do, tried for a few months and then we went to the Dr. to see what we were doing "wrong". After dealing with what I think of as an insensitive and incompetent staff at my then OB/GYN, I decided to find a new office to go to. I finally found a Dr. that knew his stuff.

He is a pull no punches, tell it like it is type of guy. We did the tests, I had surgery, but he was upfront, he told us if it did not happen in 6 months to start checking our options. I think I hung upside down, wiggled around, layed still, did all the crazy stuff I could think of. I tried acupuncture, nothing was working "naturally". So, I went to see an infertility Dr.

This Dr.'s office was as bad if not worse than my first OB/GYN. They wanted to schedule all these treatments and appointments and tell me what "I" was going to do with "MY" body. You see, that is the WRONG way to approach me. It was like I was on an assembly line or a cattle call and I was "next" in line. I promptly told them, "I will decided what I'M going to do with MY body!!" I picked up my purse and left. Never looked back!!

I was able to "mourn" the loss of possibly never getting pregnant, I thought heck that's overrated anyway. Who wants to squeeze a bowling ball out of your body? NOT ME!!! I started researching adoption and doing the informational meetings. I was able to get my hubby on board and we went for it.

We got all our paperwork to China, that was a bit time consuming and so on but it was done. Then, the wait starting growing and to this day, a little over a year later, it continues to grow. So, I thought let's go for Korea. Here we are, paperwork in Korea and now we wait. I am not a patient person but here we are just waiting.

The point in all this is reflection. I felt like reflecting over my journey so far and felt like sharing. I Thank God we did not do IVF, I thank God for putting adoption in our hearts, I thank God for leading us to China , I thank God for pushing us towards Korea and I thank God for helping my friends and family understand where we are coming from and about our adoption. So, in closing, sometimes we need to reflect on our lives and see that from despair comes hope, anger can breed love and life is what we make of it.